Bakit?

Bakit hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman ko ngayon?
Bakit ang bilis ng mga pangyayari?
Bakit hindi ako makasabi ng hindi at ayaw ko?
Bakit ako naguguluhan?
Bakit ako natatakot?

Pero bakit excited din ako?

Bakit lahat ng tao pag nakasakay ng elevator, lahat sila nakatingin sa readout kung nasaang floor na kayo?

ang sudden.

Symbols shmimbles

Last Sunday in church I couldn't help but stare at the young man sitting beside me.

No he was not good looking.

He was however wearing a shirt with an American flag blazing on the front, a swastika pendant and a Che Guevarra cap.

Which makes me wonder...do the young people these days really know what the heck they're doing?? These symbols have become nothing but some fashion thing. I wouldn't even say fashion statement since the ones wearing them don't even know what these mean.

Seriously man, a Swastika??!! And who in their right minds would sell such things? Don't the words Hitler and World War 2 mean anthing to you?!?!

I actually really wanted to grab that pendant and shove it down the guy's throat. Good thing I was in church.

I'm b-o-r-e-d

The title says it all. Most people would think that this is an ideal work load: zero. I have to admit, not working could be a whole lotta fun. But as with everything, moderation is the key. Not doing anything for an entire week is not moderation at all.

Now I'm wishing I have tons of work to do and to occupy my precious time at the office.

Hang on just a second...did I just actually say that? Haha, that was the best joke of the year.

I have to go splash some cold water on my face before I start saying I love working and that it's all I ever live for.

NBI my a$$

Of all days that the NBI people decided to update/maintain their system why should it be today?!?! Just when I've scrounged up all the courage and energy (which does not happen often) to brave the LRT system and it's mob of rushing people, I get slammed in the face with a sign: December 20, 2005 NBI clearance processing will be suspended at 12 noon due to computer maintenance.

So guess who gets a boink on the head for going there at 1 pm telling herself that she's just right on time after the lunch break??

Boink!

But in all fairness, losing my way around Carriedo was very informative. I learned that one can get pretty decent Chucks imitations for 400 pesos, 3 pirated DVDs for 100 and lots of other gadgets for pretty decent prices. Although one can easily get intimidated (read: scared shitless) of the people and everything about the place, I sort of kinda wanted to go around and check out what they have to offer.

I didn't have time then. And besides, I was still trying to control the urge to eye everyone who passes by me like they're all suspects on a rape case while clutching tightly on me bag and wishing I had pepper spray with me.

However, thanks to stupid NBI and their lazy computer whatevers (I say they should do the maintenance on a weekend or when there's no work...) I have to go back there soon anyway.

Ugh! Things would be so much simpler if only I could find my original clearance copy and just have it renewed at Park Square.

Am I really working?

Yes. I really am working. Unless you would differentiate working with employed. In that case I am employed but not working...yet.

30 minutes before I call it a day and so far all I have done is check email, go on breaks and call up G in Paris. Hurrah! As far as I am concerned, this is the only perk I have in this company (even if calls are limited to at most 10 minutes). So overall, I would say this first day is as productive as my first day at the WTO minus the CHF allowance, dammit!

But tomorrow's going to be a busy day albeit not at work. It's errands galore for me tomorrow morning. Did I just say morning? Yes, morning. Considering my shift ends at 2 am (we are on UK time), early morning activities don't really appeal to me just yet. However, these aren't just simple errands. Other people expect me to do it or else their Christmas plans would be ruined which would then lead to my own ruined plans (as if I have some).

So an early start tomorrow means I only have at the most 5 hours of sleep. Doable. It's not like I'm stressing myself out at work.

I think tomorrow's a great time to get myself acquainted with the Quiet Room.

Greeting card plastic from hell

What is it with the plastic wrapping of greeting cards? Why is it so difficult to take off? Just like those old cd plastic covers. You'd have to either bite the plastic or have really long scissor-like nails to open them.

I tried opening this greeting card I bought and I almost tore the envelope inside into half. I bet it's another Hallmark trick: Make the buyer nearly rip the envelope and even the card itself in half so he/she has to buy a new one again.

It would be easier to just get a piece of bond paper, fold it twice and write something that would make people think you're smart (even though you just copied it from another greeting card) and doodle a malnourished Santa.

Sweet dreams are made of these

It has been three weeks since the start of the pinas tour. Amazing, but tiring as well. As a matter of fact, I now have fever (or lab-nat as some of you may try to imply). But it was all worth it.

A lot has happened during the 3 weeks that it would be so tiring (reading as well as writing) to post everything. Besides, I don't think I can get back into the groove of blogging yet.

Physically I'm back in Manila, yet psychologically I'm still on vacation. Like some wise man said "Maalala mo Bohol" with a very cute french accent while chilling out at Nuts Huts. The beach and sunset over Santa Fe sure made up for G's highway to hell on the way to Sagada, the freezing cold water in the worst "hotel" we've been to and the terrible weather in Banaue (4kms down the mountain in the rain).

But it was all worth it and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. Yes, I know this is such a cheesy line especially coming from moi. I might not be such a heartless bitch after all.

Anyway, like I said, it's back to reality now. Meds for my fever, clearances for work, work. Now don't get me started about that subject. I'm starting on Friday hoping that I'd be all better then. I wouldn't want to get the chills on my first day.

So all I need now is to get more rest, fluids, fluids, fluids and hope for the best.

p.s. I might be getting into the blogging groove sooner than I would have thought if I follow Jem and Cho's work habits.